April 2016

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Olivia has turned 3, which usually means it is a good time to start potty training.
However, I didn’t realize how hard it would be.

When I was pregnant with Carter, i was wanting her to be potty trained before we had baby number 2. I didn’t think she was ready and I was always super exhausted trying to stay awake with Olivia, I figured i wouldn’t be able to manage it.

Then when was almost 2, she didn’t want to be in her diaper. She screamed for me to change her dirty diaper and said she didn’t want to be in it anymore. I thought, wow, maybe this is her way of telling me she wants to be potty trained.

So I opened her little potty trainer that was given to her by my aunt on her first birthday. Got a box with books with Her to read and found some trainer samples from her diaper box that I saved for whenever we would have to potty train.

She sat on the potty and went but still didn’t comprehend that I was trying to potty train her. So I let her sit on the potty and watch a video on the iPad so she would know how it feels to pee. I was super proud she used the potty and thought, yay, she will be out of diapers before Carter is born.

After a couple days she wanted back in diapers. I was confused but when I read forums about potty training and books from the library about when to train, they emphasized to not pressure them. So I just figured she wasn’t fully ready yet and put it on the backburner.

Then on her 3rd birthday party, my one mom friend talked about potty training and asked if we started. I said no and I was thinking maybe I put it on the backburner cause I was dreading it.
My sister was visiting for Olivia’s birthday and asked if we were doing the potty training. We weren’t but then we decided to try it.
I already read a book on it and I figured since she is now 3, we should try to stick with it.

First thing I noticed about the potty training books is that they say to not train while someone is visiting are around. I realized how wrong that is. Why? Trying to potty train a toddler while looking after her little brother is HARD. My sis was a huge help cause while I was trying to find a routine for potty training Olivia, she watched Carter.

Then my attention for Olivia is on her as we both try to figure out potty training.

My first attempt at potty training Olivia was a complete disaster. She was truly terrified. She was kicking and even got her foot in the toilet while I was trying to sit her on the potty. She screamed and cried so hard. It was frustrating and overwhelming cause I didn’t know what to do.

She would hold in her pee even though I knew she had to really go. That morning after breakfast I decided to wait until she had to pee before we had to go anywhere. She had a huge panic attack which scared me so much. I had to take her off the potty and give her snacks. I felt so horrible.

I thought should I stop? All I kept thinking was, if we want her to go to preschool she has to try to learn otherwise you have to pay extra. She is already 3 and most places won’t change diapers for her anymore. Plus, we know her diaper is mostly dry the next morning.

So as I was feeding her snacks, I said should we go back and practice again? I told her I’ll bring her snacks and she agreed. While I was venting everything to my husband and my one mom friend, Olivia finally went to the bathroom! I wanted to cry out of happiness.

My sis and I talked about trying to think of a better routine to help and although some people do different routines for their kids, I realized now you got to do what works for your kid. Somethings work and some don’t. It’s a huge process.

Here’s hoping that whenever she figures out potty training it will encourage her bother to want to do it too. So far, he wants to sit on her little potty while she goes on the toilet.

Oneday the kids will both use the potty and it will be GLORIOUS! Hahahah


While watching the movie ‘ inside out’ for the hundredth time, I would look at the memories of the little girl and it almost brought a tear to my eye and how some we wish would always stay or recall at another period of our lives where the memory wasn’t truly forgotten.

Imaginary friends, games we made up, memories with the family.
I started thinking, when do we develop long term memories?

I remember some small moments from when I was a baby. I remember when I looked at an old picture from when as was a baby, there was a picture of me in the backyard playing with my sis and cousin. We were at some backyard in Montreal where my cousin used to live. I was held by her grandma from her dad’s side (no relation). I recall it being a nice summer day. I pointed to an airplane flying and I remember my sis saying I was pointing to it. However, I wasn’t able to fully talk yet. Then I was playing with my sis and my cousin.

As I got older, I remembered I told my mom that remembered that and other memories but she told me it’s not possible to remember stuff from that young. Even though my mom didn’t think it’s possible for me to remember a thing from that young, i wouldn’t know how to explain where I got it from.

I still remember that day whether it was a dream or not. Now I wonder, when would my kids remember things.

Olivia’s best friend’s mom told me she was able to take her 3 year old, Aria, to a movie and I wanted to see if Olivia would be able to watch one too. I made sure she had no screen time which was hard (she gets to watch shows once in a while after we are out and about in the mornings) but not letting her have the option to watch anything was hard.

They treated us to the first movie, which was Zootopia. Jon watched Carter while Olivia and I had our movie day. It has been a while since Olivia and I had any time with just us together since Carter. It was good for us to spend time together while daddy and Carter have time together too.

Despite how hard it was trying to prevent screen time for Olivia, it paid off. She sat through the whole movie and enjoyed it. All I had to do was make sure she watched no t.v or iPad. It was awesome. I bought us a small popcorn, hotdogs, other concession treats. I was super excited cause i wanted to see the movie with her. After the movie was done a song came on and she asked if she can dance to it. It was super cute. I said yeh, and she danced in the aisle we sat in.( it was end credits and other kids were dancing too)Then as we walked back to the car, we jumped through some rainny puddles and I played her the song “try everything” on my iPhone on the car ride back. It was a good time.

A few weeks later, she watched the music video to that song she said,”I was there.”
I said, oh you mean you were there at the movie?’

Yeh with aria (her best friend) and I said and me.
She said no, aria, her mommy.

Then I thought, wait did she completely forget I was there? It was a special moment to me, but only I remembered it. I was a little sad.

Then I thought of the movie from inside out. Maybe she is still not having the full core memories yet. Here’s hoping the movie tickets will make that day into a core memory, the same way that picture did.


When I was in junior high I would watch the cartoon called “rugrats”. It was cute how they would have their own adventures and language the adults wouldn’t understand.

Now that Carter is in the stage of being more vocal and mobile, it’s interesting seeing the interaction with him and his sis. When I check what they are up too, the get a little too quiet like I’m interrupting their secret conversation.

Jon and I have to guess what Carter wants since he doesn’t say regular words, I would see him talk with his sis and they would laugh and play together. It reminded me of the rugrats cartoon.

Whenever he talks I feel like he should have comic bubbles that you can fill in the blanks later. Then Olivia becomes the baby translator. Haha.

I remember when I was pregnant with Olivia she would kick, poke, turn which was surreal. I would record her moving to the sound of my voice. It was amazing. When you see your stomach moving the first time, you realize, there’s someone in there. As you grow each month you think, whoa it must be getting a little tight. I got used to the turning and poking and kicking but the part I wasn’t used to was the scratching. When Olivia was born her nails were quite long.

When I felt like I was being scratched, I was thinking, this feels weird. When I was pregnant with Carter I was thinking to myself, wow, he’s scratching me, just like this big sister. I wonder if he has some sharp nails too, then I thought of this idea for a comic. Maybe they had some crayon in the womb and wanted to doodle.

Nine months in the womb is a long time, I assumed they probably wanted to keep themselves occupied with something. Hahaha.