Pressing pause?
A friend asked me, would you pause your life with the kids. I answered, no.
I would press forward to them a little older so I can maybe sleep through the night again. Ha.

I added if you asked me this when i was younger (21)if i was ready for motherhood, no, because I wanted to work on going to college and working a bit after college, have my career first. I knew I wasn’t ready yet and at that time I didn’t for sure if I wanted a family cause I was still growing up and figuring out my own life.

What made me realized i wanted a family?
2 moments.
First moment was when I babysat my neice who was about 6 or 7 at the time. My sis picked her up and her face lit up and she hugged her because she missed her. It was a different interaction between them. I thought to myself, hmmm, i think I want that someday.

2nd moment is when i told my niece that i’m deciding which clothes to keep or donate.( i used to buy clothes all the time)
I did a mini fashion show and she lined up all my stuffed toys on the bed with her in the middle. I tried each outfit and she would say yes or no. It was fun.

Those were my main moments where I knew I Wanted a family someday.
When it finally happened, it is surreal seeing anlittlle mini version of yourself running around giggling, singing, dancing and being silly with.

They still think I’m funny, cool, having say yaaaay mommy when they see me!! i am neither cool or funny unless you enjoy nerdiness and cheesy humor lol but they dont know that yet. And have them run to me because they are happy to see me, it’s the best feeling ever.