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Are you a morning person? I am definitely not. I am nice person in general, however when I don\u2019t sleep, it\u2019s a whole new side.<\/p>\n
When I got married, I realize all the sides I try to keep hidden\u00a0become exposed. You\u2019re both vulnerable to every quirk that you don\u2019t know would even be a quirk. You both see each other through the good and through the bad times.<\/p>\n
When I was going through some extreme sleep deprivation after I had Olivia, it was a whole different side even for myself. I knew what it was like to be tired and grouchy but being extremely tired to the point where you aren\u2019t sleeping for months is beyond extreme. I knew I was afraid of going through sleep deprivation all over again when we had baby number 2.<\/p>\n
During the first few months with Olivia, it became\u00a0a huge test of patience. \u00a0I really had none when I had no sleep. My moods were so bad and the one who had to see that vulnerable side was my husband. I didn\u2019t want him to see that part of me because I didn’t like myself during that time. I had no friends with kids to talk to.<\/p>\n
I felt like he married mrs.jeckyll & hyde with a combination of the hulk. I wasn\u2019t a nice person because I was irritable, sad and depressed. I was afraid and ashamed of anyone seeing me that way. I usually bottle up my feelings to myself. I let it stew and then I explode like a volcano.<\/p>\n
It was almost like that Simpsons episode where Marge just had a meltdown in the car. Except my meltdown was at home. I wanted to run off lock myself in a quiet room to just sleep. I didn\u2019t feel like I had that option to rest, so I felt alone. I isolated myself and hardly went anywhere cause it was mostly cold and gloomy outside which gave me the “winter blues”.<\/p>\n
Now that we have two kids, I find that it’s a true test of trying to be a good mother and a good wife but at times I feel like neither.\u00a0I felt like I had so much pressure to constantly put on a smile and be happy all he time and still pull off looking good and not old and tired from exhaustion. Or to still have energy to cook a fancy meal and be the perfect wife. It wasn\u2019t the case.<\/p>\n
There are no instructions on how to be a great mom. At times I feel, am i doing enough? Am I good mom? Are my kids happy? My husband tries to remind me that I am doing great even when I feel like I\u2019m not.<\/p>\n
Maybe I\u2019ll finally master this whole parenting thing when I\u2019m 60. If only a sleep deprived me would turn green like the hulk so it can give warning for everyone to run away until I catch up on\u00a0sleep again.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Are you a morning person? I am definitely not. I am nice person in general, however when I don\u2019t sleep, it\u2019s a whole new side. When I got married, I realize all the sides I try to keep hidden\u00a0become exposed. You\u2019re both vulnerable to every quirk that you don\u2019t know would even be a quirk. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-516","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-the-random-doodle"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/lifeindoodles.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/516","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/lifeindoodles.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/lifeindoodles.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lifeindoodles.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lifeindoodles.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=516"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/lifeindoodles.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/516\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2788,"href":"https:\/\/lifeindoodles.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/516\/revisions\/2788"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/lifeindoodles.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=516"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lifeindoodles.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=516"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lifeindoodles.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=516"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}